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J's 1st Boo-Boo!!
Saturday, September 29, 2007

I'm downstairs and my brother is with J upstairs and I hear him call my mom, I was like huh? OK w/e, then I hear them call me, and my brother tell me, "I think I broke your child" I was like HUH? I go upstairs and I see J in my mom's arms and he's got a bump on his head covered in Vicks Vapor Rub (which if you've ever seen My Big Fat Greek Wedding, that is my mom's Windex). But he looked just fine, not even crying. I went downstairs, got him an ice pack to settle the swelling. J's fine, he's a trooper, no tears.


(I'll let my brother tell the story in a comment)


**update** J has not drooled since his little bump, so according to David, he fixed him, lol

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PICTURES!!
Friday, September 28, 2007

Finally his pictures came in! I wish I would've gotten some more because with a blink of an eye, they are all gone =/

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Dilemas and TONS of RAMBLING by me...
I feel caught b/w two of the biggest mommy controversies there are.

1) single moms vs well not

2) stay at home moms vs working mom

While pregnant I read lots of parenting magazines, and I still do! and these topics always seem to come up, and along with the breast feeding vs formula topic, some moms get very heated about it, taking one side or another. I personally feel caught in between with those two.

For the first one, while not being a single moms means to have a nuclear family, as established by the census and well most people: mom + dad + kids = family. It's also the norm, not necessarily always married b/c almost half of the couples in America cohabitate, living together as one, yet never marrying. Only problem with that, is because only you guys recognize it, there are no medical benefits, etc, yet after 2 years you can still "divorce" and bitch and moan about all your joint posetions. which reminds me, if your poor you need a prenupt more so than if you're rich, bc if you're lucky enough to go up in your finances, by scoring a good job, winning the lotto, idk, then you have more to lose in the end, bc you get to lose what you worked hard to make. Take Rachel Ray (WHO I LOVE, well not really her, but her tv show). Anyways where was I? o yes... so as asingle mom it makes things easier in a way bc I dont have to worry about how I raise Jayden, whether Keith likes it or not, Jayden's going to wear little polo shirts, he's going to wear stripes, or anything else I want him to, with nobody to tell me different. I'm going to baptize J as catholic, bc well I'm Catholic, and J and I go to church every sunday, if when he's a grown person, he decides to be Jewish, Buddhist, Baptist, whatever else, he can go figure it out for himself and give it all a try till he finds what he wants, but for now, my son is going to be baptized Catholic with the God Parents I chose! Another great thing, is I can teach him Spanish if I want, I can sign him up to any cheesy extra curricular activity, I think you get the point, I can raise Jayden, how I want, without anyone telling me different =} of course I'm going to do so to the best I can and to try to have him be happy, well rounded, and well mannered. But on the downside, being a single mom is tough. Not only financially, bc let me tell you, J goes through diapers like nothing, and good thing I'm breast feeding, bc formula is EXPENSIVE! But also, its harder to share the chores, bc theres nobody to share them with. I've been blessed and I'm so thankful to my family, my mom, dad and brother, because without them, I'd really be struggling in so many ways. I luckily have someone to relieve me every once in a while, but for those that don't, babies are time consuming and needy. The whole day goes past and revolves around J. I don't mind it though, bc he's funny and keeps me entertained, and like I said I have those who love us, help me, even by just being there. There's feedings every two/three hours, there's holding, and rocking, and singing, and crying, and talking, and changing diapers, and bath time, and sleeping at wierd times, etc. Lucky for me, I get to play with J all day! and then when my family gets home they fight about who gets to hold him, play with him, bathe him, etc. So I get help. But I feel for those Single mom's that unfortunately can't ask family for help. In one of those articles I read there was a mom saying how she actually is in awe and gives props over how single moms can do it bc its hard work, and as a new mom, i'm personally in awe as to how all moms did it and continue to, whether single, married, with a partner, whatever, with kids young or old. There are still those people that shun single moms. You know shit happens, old people, or young people alike, get over it and worry about your own life. Oh on a side note, being a young mom, also comes with issues. I like it, bc when J is going to be old enough to paly sports, I'm going to be right there practicing with him (if he lets me, lol). But at my class last time I went, this mom asked for help on trimming the babies nails, so i gave her my advice too, and she just gave me this look like she was brushing me off. Whatever, it's your first child too, funny how I can cut my childs nails and didnt ask for help. Pshhh (OK totally venting, lol)


My second point, which I'm hoping is a little less scattered, lol, is working vs staying at home. Like I've said I've been blessed that my family has been there for me, and has given me the opportunity to watch Jayden grow these past three months. I caught him smiling, lifting his head, sticking out his tongue, squeeling, and "talking" his head off and I've loved it all. But lately, I've been trying to get out there and work! First trying to apply to any night job, so he could stay at home with the family while he slept. But no luck, so I applied to regular jobs now and realized I might have to put little man in day care. I had an interview the other day, and that morning I had to say bye to my little gordo, even though I was leaving him wiht his grandparents, still I was like OMG what if I have to say bye to him every morning but leave him to some lady!*** I know, I know what you're thinking, even doctors and lawyers and engineers have to leave there babies. I headed of to my interview at a preschool, to make a long story short, PRESCHOOL IS EXPENSIVE!!!! $200 a week! crazy, for me to put him in day care, I'd end up working 40 hours, and after daycare be left with like $50 minus gas. Yeah professionals have to leave them too, but they can afford to. Total crazyness, no wonder they have all these things online and in magazines, to calculate how much a stay at home mom really costs. It's the price of daycare, a cook, and a housekeeper, plus some, I kind of always skip that part. Anyways, there goes the single mom thing sucking again bc preschool is expensive and then you dont even have an option of staying home ={

Tons of rambling on this post!

O yes another dilema, what do people prefer. Nannies or Preschools/Daycares? At first I was like aww a nanny, how cute, its a one-to-one ratio, but then, with experience of working at a preschool, I realized I prefer a Preschool. There are rules and regulations, there's a curriculum, etc. Yeah i know there are teachers and schools who are really whatever about their job, and spend more time talking to each other about personal things then the kids during playground time (I know some of those), but those might also be the ones that when it comes to activities, are super creative, are sweet to the children, have so much experience and knowledge that they know just what to say, how to sing it, and ways to engage the kids. To find a daycare, you have to go and check it out. Feel it out. The one I went to, was nice, it wasn't like those that are more like a jail, where they just make sure the kids on this side dont go over to the other side, etc. But at the same time, I saw teachers who weren't happy with their coworkers, making a bad aura for the children, and as I went into the infant room, I saw a little boy under a rocking chair and nobody did anything, knowing Jayden who likes to push things, he'd start pushing the rocking chair and squish himself =/... I'm going to have to go with NEXT!!!

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Viejito Lindo
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I think all babies look like old men, lol. And J is no exception, he's just a cute little old man.


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Mommy's New Man =}
Tuesday, September 25, 2007

There's this shirt carter makes that says that, and I think it's hillarious. IDK, I'm odd like that.

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J needs his internal clock tweeked
Friday, September 21, 2007

After not letting me sleep all last night bc he was playing and talking J is knocked out! His father created a monster bc to put J to sleep he wants to be rocked up and down like keith did and since he held him almost every second he was here (i don't blame him necessarily i'd want to hold J too as much as possible) now i have to start all over letting J know its ok to have alone time in the swing or in his crib.

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My future book worm!
Thursday, September 20, 2007

J likes books like i said in the previous story of barnes n nobles. The book he was playing with is the first book keith and i got him about the sesame street making music its cute i already know it by heart lol. There's another book he likes that my mom reads to him called Read to Your Bunny. I know i'm getting ahead of myself but i wonder what his favorite book will be? What will i find myself reading to him before bed over and over again? Will it be a classic or will it be something new? I can't remember my favorite book. I remember Silverstein the poetry author and I do know i had a dr seuss collection and i can recite most of those books but i can't pin point one? Maybe i'll come up with a favorite one myself with time.

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Tears
It's wierd, sometimes I look at Jayden and he looks like he's totally understanding his surroundings and whats going on, or what I'm rambling on to him about. Then other times I look at him and he's trying to fit all his fingers in his mouth, lol.

Last night was one of those moments where he seems like he understands, I was playing with J, he was sitting on my chest trying to grab his toes and pull them off, lol, and I get off the phone and started crying for someone not even worth it anymore, and the cutest thing, Jayden looks at me, takes his little chubby hand and wipes my cheek, looks up at me again and smiles. All I could do was grab him and hug him for the longest, until of course he got annoyed lol. BUt I love my little gordo, he always knows what to do to make his mommy happy and smile, I hope it only gets better with time.

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Mommy's little monster
Tuesday, September 18, 2007

After six days with daddy Jayden and i go back to our mommy and me alone times! J was so pooped from the fun with his daddy that when we got home from the train station we napped for 4 hours. I guess i was pooped too lol. <<via mobile blog>>

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Chee Burger Chee Burger
Monday, September 17, 2007
Keith couldn't handle it by himself, so Jayden helped him out!

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Daddy and Me (well Jayden)
Saturday, September 15, 2007
It's time for Jayden to go to class and Keith agrees to come with. I didn't think he'd like it though, because honestly the scene isn't really him. I don't know how to explain it any better. But we were on our way.
Today seemed like daddy and me day, because lots of dads were there, even without the moms. I think the first class went better, but whatever it was still fun to play with Jayden, I let Keith do most of the activities and he did with a smile. I still don't think he cared for the class, but was just happy to be spending time with J.

Towards the middle of class Jayden got sleepy, and Keith picked him up, and Jayden fell asleep. As I looked around, I think 90% of the babies had fallen asleep and were being held by their parents. lol



Tomorrow... is BEACH DAY!!

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My little future football **star**

It's so funny, if there is one thing that gets J's attention, it's FOOTBALL!!!!

My brother and him watch football weekly since it's starts, it's there little tradition, and it's funny to watch J, because he stays FOCUSED on that TV, and if there's a commercial, he gets whiny, and the thing that makes us laugh, is that if you put tennis on, J starts crying (even he knows, tennis is lame).

So today of course we watch the UF vs Tennessee game. J's prepared wearing his Gator outfit. First, he was fcused, but he was confused because he was wearing orange and the gators were all in blue, so like in the first play we score (BUT OF COURSE) we're all happy, the SWAMP is blowing up, and then randomly J makes this sad face an cries, it was too cute, but funny at the same time.

Of course we won.

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Dress up
Friday, September 14, 2007
Day one with keith here. I wanted to go to the pool but the weather in the morning wasn't nice so we postponed it till after 3. We went to babiesRus so we could see what to dress J in since keith says I dress him "gay". I got to admit while there keith got him some outfits that were very cute. But i still like how i dress him myself as well. By the time we got home from other errands J was pooped and finally napped for some time. The good thing about keith coming is that he's great at putting j to sleep!! <>

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Yay for Jayden!
Thursday, September 13, 2007

His daddy is coming to visit him as we speak

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8-P
Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Funny how so much of a babies day to day is through routine, repetition, and memory. I remember after Jayden started smiling he used to resone to us sticking out our tongue or by rolling it by flashing us a big grin and then by sticking out his tongue too and then smiling. But since he started "talking" we talk to him more and respond to him and don't do the tongue thing an neither does he. Today many times i attempted to get him to stick his tongue out with no luck. Which is disappointing bc it was cute! I also found that since i haven't done super mans in some days bc lately i get a wonderful milk surprise all over me followed by a smile, he no longer does this face where it's a big roaring smile. I have to keep doing these things to see if i can get our game and roaring smiles back. <<via mobile blog>>

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3 months!!!
Sunday, September 9, 2007
First off:


Happy 3 months to Jayden Alexander!!!!


Next:

So yesterday was our first day of class at Nova University. It was cute, Nova has a really nice set up for children. Our class is made up of 8 babies including Jayden; 4 Girls and 4 Boys. Jayden is the oldest, from the youngest being 4 weeks old. It was mainly an introductory course, so there was a lot of hellos and brief showing of the toys we'll be playing, and the songs we'll be singing. Then there was free time. The teacher, Shari, took out all sorts of toys, from a Lamaze 'Spin and Explore' tummy time thing, rice cereal for the babies to feel, bright yellow smiley face plates that they enjoyed looking at, bells and shakers, a Boppy (which Jayden has at home and we get tons of use from) to Jayden's favorite which was this blue lei that would tickle his face. Jayden really seemed to enjoy class as he was happy the whole time. Unfortunately I wanted the class also to meet new moms but 4 of the babies came with both mom and dad, and all the moms wer almost double my age. I really liked the class for Jayden so I'm going to call to see if the other classes during the week have babies closer to Jayden's age and moms closer to my age. If not, I'll still take him back because he liked it!

ps: HAPPY GRANDPARENTS DAY!!!!

This morning David made scones for breakfast and Jayden gave grandma and grandpa a frame where he puts his feet and hand prints and it holds a picture of him in the middle. I wanted to take J to the pool with them this morning but the weather was not sunny or nice, so we'll postpone grandparents day activities till next week!

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Gadejo!!!
Saturday, September 8, 2007

I don't know how to translate that word into english but thats what comes to mind tonight. For an hour i attempted to get j to sleep. My mom tried then i tried again with no success. It wasn't that jayden wasn't sleepy bc he was. He was even doing that sad soft i'm sleepy cry but he just kept fighting it. Then my brother comes upstairs bc he's going to try and i hand j over. I check back with them five mins later and they are knocked out side by side in the bed like whatever. So i say "Jayden lo que tiene es gadejo". Good night. Ps. Tomorrow is our first day of class i'm so excited. I already laid out our clothes lol

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Feeling Accomplished...
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Today, Gordo and I got ready for a day with not really much planned. We skipped on our daily walk, because it's SO INCREDIBLY HOT OUT!!!! We played in doors for a bit and sang songs, then I got him ready to venture out bc I wanted to go to the local Party City store to see their halloween costumes. As I was finishing up feeding him to go, I get a call from my aunt that her and my cousin are home. I was expecting this call later, but w/e I wanted to go visit them. So we did. It had been quite some time since both of them saw him. My cousin last saw him around fathers day weekend, and my aunt, mid August. Jayden does well with people though, and him and my cousin played for a bit, then my aunt held him, and she had a huge smile on her face, this made me feel so good, b/c I grew up with her watching us, and she was the bestest and has always been super lovable to me, so I'm glad she gets happy to see my little one!

Then Jayden started getting sleepy, so we headed on home, as soon as I picked up the carseat, J knocked out for about an hour. When he woke up, I decided it wasn't too hot out, so we took our trip to the party store, the costumes weren't that nice, I think I'm going to check out baby's r us, although my favorite ones are the Tom Arma's costumes but you can only get those online and then what a hassle to return it if it doesn't fit. =/ Maybe next year, but who knows by then Jayden will be 16 months old, and well it'll be a year later, so I'll probably change my mind (check back again in a year).

Anyways, so since Jayden was looking mighty sleepy while in the stroller, I decided to walk him over to TJ Maxx, I hadn't been in here in FOREVER! a little on the unorganized side, but they had really cute things in the baby section for the upcoming winter. Funny, I ran into my cousin who I had just seen, we talked a litte and she was done, so she was on her way, but since I like J to get good sleep, I think I strolled around there for like 45 minutes.

Then on the ride home, I remembered I had to call for this job I want... bc I need a job! But not just any job, I need one that works for my time specifically. Anyways, did that, then I called for J's medical insurance, b/c they've been pissing me off for a month to get things switched over to this county since we moved. I got an answer somewhat.... but not really. I truly hate those recordings that make you chose a number for this, and a number for that, then you have to hold. I've tried pressing different numbers on other occassions, and they always end up in the same place, so why not jsut let me talk to someone, instead of making me waste my minutes, and my time and make me listen to the options. They should have like a direct line for people who need to call back and know exactly what they need, bc well thats me, and maybe it wouldn't have taken me a month JUST to get them to understand that J's address needs to be changed. (ANYWAYS... TOTALLY VENTING!!!)

So, I finally get home, and J is sleeping for a bit, so I say, perfect, since it's my day to make dinner, I can start it without having to worry about him. He sleeps for like 30 minutes after we get home, giving me enough time to start all the food, I decide to make rice (which is like my kryptonite, bc i totally suck at it!) green been salad (like my mom makes, and I love) and some barbacue chicken.

He wakes up hungry, so I feed him, and my little sleepy head knocks back out, giving me enough time to finish up dinner... and might I say, smells delish, and I tasted the rice, and quite frankly I'm content! it's good =} of course nothing like my mom's, but edible.

Well he's still napping, so I'm off to fold the laundry I did yesterday days ago, lol.

ps. Reason he's sleeping so much... we were up this morning at like 3am for about an hour and a half. So he's making up for it! hmmmm maybe I should too. Laundry vs sleep! i dont know we'll see...

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Sloppy kisses and little people hugs
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
One memory mom and me have is that when i was younger i'd ask for a hug. I'd go up to her with open arms and then i'd close them letting her give me a huge hug all the way around. And something i hope i won't forget with j is that for having such little arms he gives the best hugs and he seems to know exactly when i need one the most. Putting one hand on my right shoulder and the other around my neck and then he squeezes! As if this wasn't the best feeling j has learned to give me kisses on the cheek. Yeah they are sloppy but they're great and its these little man hugs with chubby hands and sloppy kisses i love and those that make me smile when i'm down.

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Morning Sunshine
Jayden has grown so much physically and developmentally*, i remember when we used to try tummy time, he'd at first refuse to even pick his head up, or even turn it to the side. Then he moved on to picking his head up JUST enough to suck on his arm and no more. Then I could get him to smile while picking his head up slightly. Now Jayden holds his head up higher and laughs, giggles, and "talks" to me while we play!


*correction thanks to comment :0P

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He's a snorer!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007

But he gets it from his daddy!!

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Good morning!


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Tummy Time!
Sunday, September 2, 2007

Tummy time!

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Picture Time!!!
I've been so excited! For weeks I've had this flyer in my wallet for a portrait packet at Olan-Mills, and finally my appointment day has come. Now first I thought it would be a cute idea to take pictures of Jayden and his grandparents =} they were all matching in khakis and white (you know with grandparents day coming up next sunday).
As I'm getting him ready he's all smiles, after he ate, while he's been dressed, while we're brushing his hair... ALL SMILES! On the way there he takes a nap (which i dont think was the best idea)
We get there. First we did just Jayden time! First pose was him sitting up by himself. These pictures came out cute, but my Gordo looked just that, gordo! The next set of prints were him on his tummy, these came out cute, but every time he'd smile, he'd do this shy boy thing were he'd look down, but still this pose was the winner. The next set, was of him laying on his side, but nope... Mr Jayden was not feeling this and began to get upset, so picture time was over!
But then, there he goes smilling again, so we attempt to do picture time with the grandparents! oh yeah!! But he was not trying to smile, he was putting up his best serious face ever. After all of us trying to make him laugh with numerous attempts, he finally broke a smile, but everytime the camera would click, he'd look down, or to the side, or my mom and dad werent looking or smilling. Well... next time will have to do.

We picked our picture! and now you'll just have to wait to get a glimpse.... why? b/c well i have to wait to receive them too...lol.

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