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Sunday, May 25, 2008

OK, so I am loving this weekend time with J! I have so much fun with him!!!

1. No he goes boom boom =] lol. i dont know where i got the song that goes "boom boom boom i want u in my room" so i sing the boom boom boom part to him and he goes boomboom!! i love it =]]

2. J likes playing in the sand! but he also likes to eat it and gets pissy if u tell him not to!

3. POCOYO!!!!!!!!!



This is the cutest cartoon I think!

4. J is a blast to go shopping with! He gets all excited and points out things he likes. But a good part is he's got a short term memory so he forgets about one thing fast when he sees another, lol.

5.GOING TO DISNEY IN 13 days!

6 J IS GOING TO BE 1 in 15 days. Which means time to try strawberries, peanut butter, and bes of all, to turn the car seat around to face forward!!!

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The heat is ridiculous though
Wednesday, May 21, 2008

As i wall to my car from class this is my only reminder of the uf campus. Of the ville in general. This big used with moss hanging down. Then i look to the right and left and i see palm trees. Lol. The school.s are so different in structure not only the outside construction but the classrooms as well. You can tell which department gets the most funding from alumni here too which i've always found amusing. But in all i think i like it here. The administration in general sucks and i have to drive forever but i like it here. The classes seem interesting and much more specific to the major and how to relate the information with our actual future jobs. I don't know but its growing on me. That or i've totally come to the realization that i need to accept things how they are now.

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Potty time!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008

So yay! Since saturday morning j has successfully gone number one and two in his elmo potty! And not just once. Several times. He's too funny too bc when u sit him he reaches over for some reading material. Now we have to consistently give going potty a name or a sign he understands and more importantly one that we understand until he can go and sit on it himself i guess. Along with this we should be more consistent with our attempts with a goal of dry diapers in between potty breaks.

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Identity Formartion
Sunday, May 18, 2008
"Although we cannot change the past, what we want out of the future, along with our motivation to achieve what we want, is more important (than our past experienes) in determining what our future will be" (Zastrow, 62)

Most Important Issues:

1. What kidn of person do you want to be?



2. What do you want out of life?


3. Who are you?


These are considered the most important issues, and should be answered in order to know where life is leading you, to be successful at achieving an identity.

But they can change as life changes. I'm going to think of my answers an get back to myself i guess, lol.

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biography log... a blog
Friday, May 16, 2008
not a reliable source, at least thats what my professor says. but i guess it depends on what ur writting. for me its a reliable source for my life and my randomness. if i had a cooler phone i might be able to do so more often, but we'll talk about that when summer craziness is done. grrr.

so on another random side note. i was very down not to long ago, u might say its dumb, but it wasnt to me. i had been wanting andplanning J's 1st bday at the magic kingdom forever, and now thanks to summer classes, i cant. well we're still going, but its not the same, i wont be at the magic kingdom on his birthday! in fact, nothing fun at all, just driving back home early ass, so i can make my 1:15 class. BOOOOO really. aside from this school just seems overwhelming, and im crossing my fingers that 9 credits the first 6 weeks and work wont totally fail on me! i also, had been so proud, my nails had gotten so pretty and long (yes my real nails!!) and then with bs from school and life and work, they are gone, nill. nothing is left. totally aggravating, bc i thought id kicked one of my bad habits out along with this over-rated thing called love. bc yes its true finally thats done, at least as much as i believe so, now its more on family preservation and the fact that it was someone i cared about, but love, like b4 no, definitely not. and it seemed to be working well (at least for almost 3-4 weeks) THATS a lot, in my random brain/life.

so yes like 22 more days till our disney vacation, till J turns 1 and till my nursing days (aka bfeeding days) are over. I know some people do it for like years, but i had my goal set on 1 year and im reaching it! and as much as i would not mind pumping and having milk, my milk for him in the fridge when he wants it, in like cereal, etc... having the actual milk is starting to be a problem. its due to me not having lunch breaks at work, so i missed pumping a lot, and my body just got used to missing out on that mid-day milk supply i guess. then when id work at night the same thing. id try to pump when i could, but less and less milk comes out when i try. still i feed him mainly at night, but i doubt that will last much longer. anyways back to me being done with nursing, means yay for real bras!!! lol sounds stupid, but u try the nursing bras, they are lame, not cute and yeah theres no such thing as strapless (not even skinny strapped ones), but im hoping once im done breastfeeding my wierd hormones will be finally gone. im tired of crying over every little thing. i miss the bitchy me! that me was fun! and happy =] But i doubt i can go back to that me... now im a mom and theres this like motherly side of me thats corny and sappy and its here to stay. i havent decided how i feel about that yet. ill keep u posted.


so on a huge switch of topics! it was teacher appreciation week. i didnt even know that existed! and it was super cute. i got lots of things from my parents and kids, from flowers, to snacks (sounds wierd, but definitely usefull!), to smelly stuff, and gardening things. but honestly my favorite day was today, friday. it was im guessing thank u card day. and some of the parents wrote the sweetest things! (and yes here come those lame hormones AGAIN) but as i read them i cried. they really do like me, and thats like a major approval! yeah i hope my boss and my peers like the work i do, and that i do it right, but i work for the kids and if they're happy and if their parents too, that means i did a great job!!!

ok so bed time, i now have a weekend off, so its park/pool time with me and j, and then nap time for j which means essay time for la MAMA, aka: me! good night!

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betty la fea
i want to find my gio... no not a sandwhich guy, lol. yes the latin part and the part that he's cute is nice. but he so sweet. he not only likes, LIKES betty but hes such a good friend to her too. hes always like right there at the right time, with horse and carridge, with stealing trophies, lol. idk, random.

i was planning on taking this first weekend off b4 school really got hectic to see if i could ever really travel with J and go up to gainesville, although tania isnt there =[, i even had people cover my shifts at work. I wanted to just be me and J type of thing especially since now with school, most of my time wiht j is him sleeping, or me annoyed, tired, or sad, or worse with a million and one things going through my head. but nope, bc someone wouldnt pick up their phone and i need to get something from him, plus it was like a back-up incase J was crying too much, i needed to know if he could meet up where i was and drive either up or down, plus if i got up there, i think hed want to see his son. idk why i try random things. if only i was this persistant and optimistic and or hopeful about other things in life, lol. i really just want it all to end. stupid.

lol i want my gio, someone to be there always for me and make me laugh, and listen to me when something is wrong, a friend type of person. like my mom is there for me, and she always knows when im not close to my best and she tries super hard to be there for me, but instead i dont know, it doesnt seem to help. with david, hes there, but i dont want him burdened with me, bc i know he really cares and will worry himself, and i dont want that. i want those around me to be happy and well. and usually like friends have a way of being there, yet distancing themselves back into their own lives, it hurts less this way i think, idk.

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mama
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Happy Mothers Day to all the mommies, and mommies to be!

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Jayden discovered the stairs!!
Saturday, May 10, 2008

On the to do list for today..... Buying two baby gates!!


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If a picture says 1000 words what's mine saying?
Friday, May 9, 2008
Today was our mothers day party at discovery and my kids sang wonderfully. Everything looked great. The mommies loved their gifts and some even cried. Lol. I can't laugh too much bc that will be me needing tissues next year when jayden is in barney! I love working with ms debi she's so organized and prepared so everything always goes great. I've learned a lot from her! On a random side note since today was our party we couldn't go looking like our everyday messes well me and my everyday mess lol. So i showered. Didn't have time to straighten my hair so i curled it and put on like eyeliner and mascara and lip gloss. I took a picture of myself and i hated it i look so different than i used to. My smile isn't the same it seems so forced and my eyes look sad. I just look strange. Idk. I was never one to take pics of myself like other girls do so i don't have much to compare but still it looks like a different person i wonder if i'm over analyzing or if thats what others see too?


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11 months

at 11 months, my gordito couldn't be more perfect!

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the ville
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
The only good thing about gainesville is that since there isn't anything else in that city other than the university when u need to handle something on campus it's right there not a thirty minute drive for them to tell me i have to come back another day. Grrr. But this ish will be worth it whenever i finally finish school. At least thats what i'm hoping.

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definition
Sunday, May 4, 2008
surrounded by people, yet lonely.

merriam-webster defines lonely as: being without company and sad from being alone.

whats my definition... i dont know.
but i think now i've resolved something or i have come closer to resolving something i've asked myself many times, "do i miss him or just having someone there?"

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He's the reason why i smile.
Friday, May 2, 2008
It's been over a month since my last real entry. And a long time coming since the last update on life in general. J is soon to be 11 months. He's got 6.5 teeth now. He's a super fast crawler and to think i thought he'd skip that milestone. His favorite thing is to be chased! He also pulls himself up and walls by holding on to things. He's a risk taker and his curiousity gets the best of him so i have a feeling walking will be coming soon!! He's a total chatter box!! I wish i could understand him bc he goes on for a while and he totally seems to be telling you a story with high and low points too. J is also definitely a charmer everywhere we go he loves to smile at people and he's got such a smile people do it back. He waves hi and waves adiós. He also mimics david with a funny expression which led to j finally clapping! He also sings along and has certain favorite songs! And i think
his motto is being happy! Bc he's happy and smiley always! I've been blessed with the best son ever.


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