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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
when we found out i was pregnant. u promised ud be there for the baby and me. that wed b a family and that ud be there. that didnt go smoothly. the night before labor at the top of the stadium u promised wed be ok. wrong again. why should i trust or believe u this time when time after time that u say u want to be with us something or someone comes up. im tired of being sad. tired of being let down. i no longer trust anyone thanks to u. and frankly i dont feel like being let down. so i question myself each day with why i am doing this if its the best thing to do and what will happen when it all goes to shit again? this time i need more than just words... but just exactly what am i looking for? idk.
wow its been some time now. october came and went. and i must say it was a fun month minus the rain. we made lots of decorations for halloween. it was fun bc j liked them and no matter how many times hed seen them. he still seemed exciter when he looked at them. we were able to do things on the weekend such as going to the park and even the pool once. but my dad is right the weather is no longer pool weather... major bummer. we were able to go to the pumpkin patch as a family again. it took j some warming up. then he liked all the pumpkins! lol. we got 2. a big one to carve and a little one to paint. then came the best part.... the zoo!! we wanteed to go to boo at the zoo but i had a workshop and we were supposed to have a picnic so david and i went on a friday. it was grea j loved it and it was great exercise for us lol. we took lots of good pics and j likes to relive his trip by looking at his photo album. tio ba was the best. we had fun. next time wed go a little earlier and make it an all day thing so to not rush and also bring water clothes bc they habe a water area. halloween was a blast, well halloween day, not night. during the day discovery had a halloween party for the children. they got to dress up and trick or treat around the classrooms. jayden loved it. he was a lion. tio ba came too. have i mentioned hes the best!!!! at night not only was it raining but j was sick ={. That night keith came down. it was a good weekend. then J got sick again, lol. what am i going to do with my poor gordo. anyways tata for now